Wisdom tooth ..... Ouch

I am finally getting my wisdom tooth .......... Its been bad feels like i am being slapped on my left cheek throughout the day and its ouuuuch hurts .... pain (someone who i know would have corrected me). Neeed stronger panadolsssssssssssss aaayooooooooo

Saturday Lows.........

Big Mistake ................... sleeping while listening to a beautiful melodious romantic number .... and hence my morning is messed up with unwanted thoughts of people who i dont even want to acknowledge. I have had a lousy weekend ..... which was a long weenkend for us here... I felt that i hurt someone but i never meant to i wasnt even aware that the person had feelings for me. Its funny where life gets us, people break up for the lamest reason and then there are some who cant feel anything for the other person.

But one thing is for sure i am never gonna adjust for anything less, and why should i, when i know i can do much better. :) everyone i know is very proud of me saying how i handled my recent break up. Yipppy

On a lighter note ............ I am going for the Horse race held here and i am working on making my hat .... yes i am making my own hat with feathers, net etc. i am very excited about it. I will try and put up a picture of how my hat turns out ....... yippppyeeessshhh :)

Grow It Or Not

Confused ................ Confused, I would completely agree it is for the tiniest reason but come on i am a girl it is improtant for me to think it over and over and over and over ......... for the longest time i could remember, i had quiet long hair ........ it gradually shortened up to medium ...... and then to short and now i am again at a point where should i stick to what i have or should i chop it off ....... Or probably just spice it up with a fringe ...... Confused i wish i could get a solution for it .... welll i think the best would be to just ask my lovely Ms J for advice (i hope she says yes for a fringe) heheh

The day so far as not been very eventful and that is only because i didnt want it to be ..... I just want to relax ... Because from tomm i will be helping Mrs JJ on a project which i am told will demanding and would require me to work on weekends tooo and i am really excited about it. I cant wait ........ :)

View From The Top

Just like what my title says ......... since i am in First class and an additional crew ... the prek is sitting in the cockpit for take off and landing, and the control tower of New York is BUzzzzzzzzzzzy very very buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy. Never seen so many aircrafts in the airspace waiting for permission or even taking off at such close intervals, i was amazed it was awesome and i had the headset where in i could hear what conversation the cockpit had with the control tower, its just ammmmmmmazing.

Thats all for now ............ And Mr. DK (also known as Mr. MBA guy) if u reading this, i would like to say Hi and a big Thank you for being there, you really are a great friend :)

Just Because I feel so ......

I used to think
I had the answers to everything
But now I know

That life doesn't always go my way
Yeah feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize
I'm not a girl, Not yet a woman

All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I'm in betweenI'm not a girl, Not yet a woman

Yipppppppppppppyzzzzzzzz

I have finally decided what it is i will be doing on my leave ......... and it is something i love ..... people who know will know what i am talking about its PR ........ and it will be with people i know and to top it i will be paid for it ......... how nice, its so true when God Almighty closes one door for you he opens another :) Happy Goddess

Fly First Class :)

First Class : Flat Bed, Own Suite, Pjs, Slippers, Hand towels and Non Stop Cavier and Champange .................... I could live that life :)

I enjoyed working that class and will be doing so for the comming few days .......... its time i take my upgrade seriously and have a word with my manager. I am suprised i was gonna give up my job, I love everything about this job to name a few its the freedom, meet new people i just love it all and i was gonna give this up for something which would be less exciting and more of a routine, wonder what i was smoking (coz i dont remember either).

I am not gonna give up this job for anything............... what i would do is try and learn something which will give me a something to fall on when ever i need it ......... :)

Flight Fever ...........

Not something which is expected of me, but for me somehow a long flight gives me creeps.... How is the crew gonna be? Will they be friendly? Will they be hardworking? Would i like them? a lot of questions ................

I belive no matter where we go its the crew that makes the flight not the passengers ........... The team work is always shown, passengers can see it. But if there is one rotten seed it can be so visible. Especially, these long trip where i will be flying from here to Hamburg then after a day to JFK and then back to Hamburg and then back home, so nearly a 6 day trip.

I should be sleeping rite now but i cant sleep .............. time to calm the senses ............ Dream ........ snore (not sure if i do) ............. nite nite to me :)

Weird Random Thoughts!!!

Well there are loads of things that run thru my head............ Scared of what future holds for me ... i am excited but a lil scared i dont know what am i suppose to look out for, its like rite now i am flying aimlessly. How do i know wat is rite or wrong for me how do i read the signs??

But before all that i dont know if i have completely shut off my past and how do u do that? or how do i know i have moved on? See i told u i have loads of questions ........... Am i still hoping my past to come back to me? Is this all normal (i think it is or so i m told) I wanna learn from my past relationship but i dont know what to learn out of it.............

One thing that i came across was my life could have been far worse, a break up is nothing atleast it wasnt as bad as someone dying, imagine someone gone and will never ever watsoever come back ...... when i mentioned this to my friend she confirmed that i was still expecting my ex back in my life, but thats not true, even if he does come (knowing him it will never happen) i would never be able to trust him as i did............. i will always have the fear or the insecurity that he has done it once he can always do it again.

What i dont get is how can love change? what makes it change as far i know a mothers love never changes so y does a lovers love change is it because they dont have a blood relationship ..... but then if they have blood relations then they become brother and sister (ok i agree i dont make sense anymore)

I am going on this long trip to Hamburg from there to JFK and i am hoping by the time i get back i will be a changed person or atleast know what i want, i hate this feeling of being aimless (and not having a mission) .............. I have already decided that i will not pursue my Bach. since that was never what i wanted to do. I am gonna work my way to CIDESCO i feel that will keep me happy and isnt that what people usually say "As long as it keeps you happy"

My family has always been very supportive and they suprise me all the time, i used to date a Hindu guy and they supported me i am sure they always knew she will come back but its strange, even when i told them its over they were like we always knew but then why was i not aware of it?

They impressed me so much that i have made up my mind ....... a decision which i will stick to, i am gonna give myself 2 more yrs with this airlines and by then i should have done something that i will be in control of. The comming two years will be all abt my career and reaching the vision i see myself in, and then i think i will do as family says marry who my folks think rite (i know its not very me) but it looks like they know exactly who i should be with, i have tried it on my own havent been quiet successful. :) I think it it cant get all that bad what more worse can happen to me i think i can be a relationship Guru....... lolzzzzzz

I am suprised by how i started off and where i reached ......... i was just randomly blabbering and i actually got my answers too ....... I love bloggin i think i should do this more often. I like the fact that i can write my inner most fear and know no one is gonna ever know who it belongs to (except one person, but i dont even expect him to read it)