WTF

What is wrong with this man that i like ..... he really reallly likes me but he is confused, i know i should give him time time ideally i would like that if i were to be in his shoe but than in the current situation i dont like that i am hanged. OK dont say the L word but i would like to treated like a woman ... i like goin on a date, flowers, suprises doesnt have to be fancy but just show me in some way u care about me.

Does he like me just because he knows i like him and its all convenient there is no hard work involved ........ I am very confused, I will give him 2 weeks so if today is 24th ... i give him till 5th of Nov 2008, lets see wat happens LOL

Insecurity

I dont know the title of this blog, but i am sure i will come up with something byt he end of it. I want to blog about where i stand in life right now. I have decided its about time to invest and since it was a huge amount and i am taking a loan and have a car on loan too ... i am scared since i dont know if i am doing the rite thing. Its good to have investements but when you start off is it normal to have hurdles, second thoughts ?? I feel the pinch, okay i know i am not the worlds best person to be given responsibities (hate them honestly) I am afraid that i will not live up to the commitment though i have worked it all out .... my finance till the end of next year .... I hope it goes the way i want it to.

I know someone who has loan but he seems to be taking it well. I think i am overreacting, its the future that i am scared of ... job security ... its a 5 year comitment ...... hopefully it should be all good. God please bless me and protect me.

Friend or Boy Friend !!! wats the difference??

As clearly my title for post says .... is there a difference in friend and a boy friend except that and friend can be a girl or a guy .... but in the case of Boy friend it is usually strictly a guy. Its like love and like, i think i was discussed that before and i would repeat is there a difference.

Am i being childish by sort of knowing there is a difference but trying to not acknowledge it ...... not sure !!! I agree there is a difference but i feel it isnt really that big a difference at the same time i like to same it has a huge difference i am sooo gonna check the dictionary .......

Till then i am still a confused lost soul ............ i can make myself sound so melodramatic ... ciao

Hope N Future !!!

"What keeps us alive, what allows us to endure?
I think it is the hope of loving,or being loved."
--
Meister Eckhart

And couple of them were on FUTURE, that i came across:

"When it comes to the future, there are three kinds of people:
those who let it happen, those who make it happen, and those who wonder what happened."
--
John M. Richardson, Jr.

"Fear not for the future, weep not for the past."
--
Percy Bysshe Shelley

"I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past."
--
Thomas Jefferson

"For the majority of us, the past is a regret, the future an experiment."
--
Mark Twain

,,,,,,,,,,, Long Way To Go!!!!

Its almost four and a half years since i am in my current job. Thats long, i have been quiet careless, made mistakes, but i feel i have grown so much from where i started, i have come a long way and i am proud of myself i have done well. But where from here ................??????

When i joined i had said five years and i will get into something i always wanna do. Now it looks like i am giving myself 2 years more. I will have to work out something by the end of this year or else i will be way behind and that me NO LIKE.

Sometimes i am scared of what will happen if i make wrong decision ......... I know its part of life, ups and downs, all makes this walk a walk to remember, but ... oh well

Wisdom tooth ..... Ouch

I am finally getting my wisdom tooth .......... Its been bad feels like i am being slapped on my left cheek throughout the day and its ouuuuch hurts .... pain (someone who i know would have corrected me). Neeed stronger panadolsssssssssssss aaayooooooooo

Saturday Lows.........

Big Mistake ................... sleeping while listening to a beautiful melodious romantic number .... and hence my morning is messed up with unwanted thoughts of people who i dont even want to acknowledge. I have had a lousy weekend ..... which was a long weenkend for us here... I felt that i hurt someone but i never meant to i wasnt even aware that the person had feelings for me. Its funny where life gets us, people break up for the lamest reason and then there are some who cant feel anything for the other person.

But one thing is for sure i am never gonna adjust for anything less, and why should i, when i know i can do much better. :) everyone i know is very proud of me saying how i handled my recent break up. Yipppy

On a lighter note ............ I am going for the Horse race held here and i am working on making my hat .... yes i am making my own hat with feathers, net etc. i am very excited about it. I will try and put up a picture of how my hat turns out ....... yippppyeeessshhh :)